" a PoEm to Papa"

My Dearest Papa,
HeRe I'm in the darkness...
TheRe's no Light, TheRe's no Shoulder to Cry on...
I'm Scared all of tHe NiGht,
I wisH it's Could be juSt a NightmaRe,
but It's NeveR GoNe 'till I Woken Up in tHe moRNinG...

My deaRest Papa,
I'm twenty when I wRote this Poem
its a LonG tiMe to RealiZe;
How I loVe U when I Need U...

My deaRest Papa,
Thanks 4 tHis GreaT momeNt...
I learns So Much tHings,
abOut Love, LosT, TeaRs, FeaRs...
Hhh...
May bE U left Me, 'coZ U loVe mE...

Pa,
If TomoRRow neveR give a cHance,
n I sHould close my eYes earlieR,
I Wish I could meet U in my laSt dReam
juSt to say: "How I Miss U..."

Give mE a white Rose oN my gravestone,
Surely that U forGive me...
Take a Pray Silently,
Surely U blessinG mE...


*Jogjakarta, On my 21st b'day Feb 2005